The 5pr46u3s | 0.6666666666666667 years

This Morning, like every morning, I was hanging out with her.  This time I decided to take some pictures.

Seriously, it is scary how much I am in love with this human being.  This Sith Lord (if you missed it I have decided this is no babyjedi, we certainly have a babysith on our hands).  But anyways, almost every day at some point I see her, I really see her and it hits me… “damn… she is my child… she is part of me.”  It is sobering, incredible, wonderful.

Let me spell out one of these very moments for you.  Picture me, no really, close your eyes and picture me… ok that isn’t going to work, open your eyes or you wont be able to read this!  Picture me, a short hairy boy man child, standing in Addison’s room.  It is night.  Turn off the lights.  I am standing there in the middle of this dark room, like many times before, holding my daughter.  I sway back and forth subtly, sometimes humming… sometimes silent.  The end goal is a sleeping baby.  My arms start to ache.  She is resisting the inevitable.  A slight pang of annoyance begins to seep into the back of my mind.  “go to sleep baby… i need to get back to *insert meaningless thing here*.”

And that is when it hits me like an asteroid the size of Texas.  What the hell am I thinking!?  I then hold her a little tighter and pray that this moment lasts way longer.  Even though she is starting to act out some small forms of independence, she is still so dependent on Kate and I.  It is the best feeling in the world.  And what scares the crap out of me is that it is not a forever thing.  And in fact, every moment it is minutely less than the last.  So I hold on tight.  I enjoy my aching arms.  I beg the cosmos for more time.

If only I could control space and time I would stay in these moments for an eternity.  Suns would die, collapsing in on themselves while I swayed back and forth in an infinitely blissful state.

She is 8 months old now and I find myself wishing for a time machine so that I could travel back and live it all over again.  Steal back some of the time that I spent ignoring her… time that I took for granted.

And now for more pictures.

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thanks for looking,

daniel. kate. addison.